10.29.2002

Today’s a good day because it’s my sweetie’s birthday ….
Happy Birthday to Cory who inches one year closer towards middle-age-ville this year – much like his birthdate (day, month AND year) partner Winona Ryder.
Unlike Winona, though, Cory didn’t have to spend his birthday in court.
I’ve already bought Cory a birthday present but I’m already thinking about what to get him for Christmas ….unfortunately I think that personalized his-and-hers action figures are out of my price range. Sorry, honey.

P.S. - a Happy Birthday to my cousin Serena too - who turned Really Really Old yesterday....


10.23.2002

What a lovely gray day it is ... Cold enough for a jacket, gray enough for thoughts of a putting a Duraflame in the fireplace and lighting the pilot light on the heter (yes, Duraflame - we're low maintenence around here).
Besides marveling at the weather my days here are being spent in basically the same fashion of school.work.school.work.school.work. Six weeks before the semester is over and I’m just trying to juggle all the books and writing projects.
I have been on a bit of a writing kick lately (well one would hope so right – considering I’m in a creative writing MFA program and all…) – what I mean is that for the first time in a long time I’m actually feeling inspired by an idea for a short story and while I haven’t actually been writing like mad I have eked out about 500 words, jotted down tons of notes and researched facts.
I’m hoping to get quite a bit of writing done over the weekend – hopefully the inspirational Duraflame won’t be out by then.
Speaking of writing. The Village Voice has a piece called ”Should Writing Hurt?” with writer Joseph McElroy interviewing novelist Harry Matthews. If you can get past all the pretentious stuff about writing outside the box and pretextual goals there are some really interesting nuggets of information and insight.
Been listening to a lot of new CDs lately – the ones I’m particularly digging:


Meanwhile – a few CDs on my wish-list


Cory and I are going to go see a screening of Eminem’s new film “8 Mile” tonight. It’s directed by Curtis Hanson, the guy who did “The Wonder Boys” and “LA Confidential”. I hated “The Wonder Boys” but really liked “LA Confidential”. I’m not a fan of Eminem but I like the film’s lead actress Brittany Murphy.
So basically I think I have a 50-50 chance of liking the film.
There are actually quite a few films I’d like to see right now:

Now I just need to find the time…..

Elsewhere in listville…. This week’s hits-and-misses / things-that-are-occupying my mind:

  • Obsessively following the D.C. Sniper story on CNN

  • Cold weather and sweaters

  • hazelnut cookies

  • Giants trailing the World Series

  • David Sedaris

  • Digs Magazine



….more later…including the Westerberg interview / Q&A….eventually, I swear….


10.18.2002

PS, just a reminder, there's a permanent link to all the Paul Westerberg. stuff here. Plus the new issue of Pop Culture Press is now on stands - I will add the story to this site sometime next week.
Last night at my fiction workshop at Mills one of my classmates brought in a poem by US poet laureate Billy Collins.
The poem, called "Workshop", brilliantly sums up the entire goddamned creative workshop experience - whatever the medium
Now you too can understand the mystery and pain ....

"Workshop"
by Billy Collins (US Poet Laureate)

I might as well begin by saying how much I like the title.
It gets me right away because I'm in a workshop now
so immediately the poem has my attention,
like the ancient mariner grabbing me by the sleeve.

And I like the first couple of stanzas,
the way they establish this mode of self-pointing
that runs through the whole poem
and tells us that words are food thrown down
on the ground for other words to eat.
I can almost taste the tail of the snake
in its own mouth,
if you know what I mean.

But what I'm not sure about is the voice
which sounds in places very casual, very blue jeans,
but other times seems standoffish,
professorial in the worst sense of the word
like the poem is blowing pipe smoke in my face.
But maybe that's just what it wants to do.

What I did find engaging were the middle stanzas,
especially the fourth one.
I like the image of clouds flying like lozenges
which gives me a very clear picture.
And I really like how this drawbridge operator
just appears out of the blue
with his feet up on the iron railing
and his fishing pole jigging -- I like jigging --
a hook in the slow industrial canal below.
I love slow industrial canal below. All those l's.

Maybe it's just me,
but the next stanza is where I start to have a problem.
I mean how can the evening bump into the stars?
And what's an obbligato of snow?
Also, I roam the decaffeinated streets.
At that point I'm lost. I need help.

The other thing that throws me off,
and maybe this is just me,
is the way the scene keeps shifting around.
First, we're in this big aerodrome
and the speaker is inspecting this row of dirigibles,
which makes me think this could be a dream.
Then he takes us into his garden,
the part with the dahlias and the coiling hose,
but then I am not sure where we're supposed to be.
The rain and the mint green light,
that makes it feel outdoors, but what about this wallpaper?
Or is it a kind of indoor cemetery?
There's something about death going on here.

In fact, I start to wonder if what we have here
is really two poems, or three, or four,
or possibly none.

But then there's that last stanza, my favorite.
This is where the poem wins me back,
especially the lines spoken in the voice of the mouse.
I mean we've all seen these images in cartoons before,
but I still love the details he uses
when he describes where he lives.
The perfect little arch of an entrance in the baseboard,
the bed made out of a curled-back can,
the spool of thread for a table.
I start thinking about how hard the mouse had to work
night after night collecting all these things
while the people in the house were fast asleep,
and that gives me a very strong feeling,
a very powerful sense of something.
But I don't know if anyone else was feeling that.
Maybe that was just me.
Maybe that's just the way I read it.

10.16.2002

Sorry about the lack of real updates lately but, as usual, school and work are kicking my ass. Indeed I've suffered a few near-meltdowns in the past week. Even my trip to Santa Cruz last week didn't help to alleviate the stress. It was fun, of course, but I really need a week off at home so I can catch up on stuff around there.
Today as I was getting ready for work - and feeling a bit freaked out by the fact that even after I finish this semester I will still have at least two more years of school - I decided to break it down into months. So, if each semester is roughly four months long than my entire graduate school experience can be boiled down to 20 months. I'm two months into this semester so that means I only have 18 months left.
Hmmm. I still don't feel much better. In fact, I have a raging headache right now.....


The whole sniper thing isn't helping matters much. Not that I'm particularly afraid of something like that happening to me but the media coverage is really starting to bug me. On one hand I'm very interested in the case and how they will eventually find this person(s). On the other hand I'm sick of the television stations and magazines trying to explore every oddball angle and / or put some sort of stamp on it. Newsweek went as far to call the sniper the "Tarot Card Killer" because one freaking tarot card was found at the scene. Authorities aren't even 100 percent positive that the tarot card wasn't planted by some dumb fuck thrillseeker but I guess "Tarot Card Killer" has more zing than just the plain old "sniper killer".


On a similar note it also pissed me off that so much space was devoted to discussing how "sniper enthusiasts" - those people that shoot things at long-range distances just for fun - are peeved because they feel it's not fair to give this guy the sniper moniker. According to the enthusiasts this guy is not good enough to be a sniper because he often shoots in the chest or other parts of the body whereas a real sniper aims for -and hits - the head.
Great people - like we don't have enough to worry about. This person(s) is killing people at random - isn't that enough for you? Now you want to bicker over semantics?


Oh ...and speaking of being pissed off. Hillary Clinton can officially kiss her Christmas card from me goodbye. After I read this piece in the Village Voice about how she's now backing Bush's war in Iraq I wondered what happened to the strong, independent-minded senator we (we of course not being me since I don't actually live in NYC - but still) were promised during the election.


I don't feel so bad now that, according to a recent poll, 69 percent of Americans don't think Clinton should pursue a presidential run.


Grrrr. I need more coffee - I don't think I'm sufficiently pissed off enough yet. There's still so much more to get fired up about.....

10.11.2002

I don't know why I love animated rockin' kitties so much .... I just do

10.10.2002

I would have actually compared it to a bad Tommy Lee Jones or John Malkovich flick, but Washington Post writers Hank Stuever and Hamil R. Harris
have the right idea in this article about the tarot card left near a sniper shooting scene in Montgomery County.

10.07.2002

So here we are in sunny Santa Cruz.
Yes, damn it, it is sunny - not what I was hoping for but it'll have to do, ya know?
Actually it hasn't been bad - except for the sunburn I got out at the Santa Cruz Flea Market yesterday. Beach sun is different than Sacramento sun.
It is cleaner and crisper and infused with the wonderful essence of ocean and sand and rubber surf gear.
Kim and I are staying at her parents' place which is just a hop and jump (as opposed to a hop, skip and a jump) from the beach. Actually you can see the beach from the living room windows. The place overlooks a parking lot where all the surfers come and park their VW vans and then change into wetsuits.
This is what it looks like from through the sliding glass doors:


Sorry, I tried to get a shot of a surfer stripped down to his birthday suit, but the timing wasn't right....
So far while we've been down here we've done a lot of sitting around (watching Trading Spaces, Anna Nicole, Osbournes, etc), reading, walking on the beach, eating and, as I said, shopping.
We tackled the shopping yesterday. In addition to the flea market we hit up some vintage clothing stores and thrift stores. I didn't find much at the latter but I did want to share some of my finds from the brutally-hot flea market.
This is my favorite score - only $3



They're space age!
Eye Protection at its best!!!!
Aren't they snazzy?





I also got this really cool Japanese pencil set for $1.


What's so special about it you ask?
Well, you can't really see it in the photo, but in the lower left-hand corner (beneath the small photo of the bee - at least I think that's a bee) it reads:

"Friend ship imporves.
and abates miserry,
and diving our griet.."

When I find out what "diving our griet" is, I will be a much happier - no make that less misserable - person.


Anyway, today's schedule includes plenty of food and sitting around plus, believe it or not, studying.
Yep. Studying.
And maybe a few more attempts to snap a picture of some surfer booty...

10.04.2002

Calm and quiet? Hah....



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